Crappy week

so like i havent blog forever because i've been terribly busy but i really am stressed right now and i really need to bitch about stuff... arrrgggg!!!!

ps: im not gonna care bout grammar and capitlizing so back off. told u i was bitchy.

anyways the story goes like this. i fucking hate my sekolah. its such a fake dramatic christian sekolah. i cant wait to get out of this fucking place. fuck fuck fuck (sorry bout the language. just really pissed) i just have to remind myslef, one more month and im gone... grrrr.

okay introduction to my sekolah. its a chrsitian sekolah so it has lots of bs rules. for example, it practices no tolerance against alcohol, meaning that you cannot drink alcohol *period* even if you're with family or in another country. another thing that they are very particular is being to close to the opposite sex and they're extremely extreme. no pda *period* anything that makes any individual feels uncomfortable is profibited. therefore no kissing *period* hence, it only make sense that the girls cacnnot be in the guys dorm and vice versa. however, they do allow for a limited time for the guys to visit the girls dorm and vice versa too. mon, tue, thurs 7-10pm and fri, sat 7pm-12.30am. during this open house, the opposite has to follow the following rules: the doors has to be prop open half way, the lights has to be on, both legs has to be on the ground, no laying on the bed, no inappropriate behavior, etc. above that, there are prefects that go and check on you every 30 minute.

okay, all of this is quite understandable. hey since im in this shool i have to follow the rules right. but then it starts getting ridiculous when people really take all this bs rules like the bible and dramatize everythg... arrrhh!!! bodoh cb lj....

back to the real story. situation no. 1. im currently talking to this guy and he's in the xx sport team. and this couple was caught sleeping together in the same room during an out of sshool meet. but there were also other male team members in the room, so they didnt do anythg besides sleeping together. but hey this is very very wrong in the sekolah. so this got out and both of the students got caught and was handed to the disciplinary authorities. they had to do like communit service or sthg. but then the coach got mad cause it made the team and himself look bad. so now he says that nobody can be seen with their gf's in the pool or any XX sport comeptitions. so one day i was really mad and i went to see the gy i was tlaking too at his work place which has sthg to do with his sport. and when we were fighting, out comes the assistant coach and she said i couldnt be there. she beat aorund the bush before telling me. WTF!!! im not even in the XX team. y must i follow their rules!!! i can choose when i wanna talk where i wanna talk who i wanna talk. its so stupid. if like other slutty girl that's not tht guy's gf came and talk to him, its acceptable. but just because im kinda related to this guy i cant. wtfwtfwtf.

situaiton 2. the same guy was in my dorm's lobby while i was working in the dorm office and the director came and saw him. she kept being so accusive of why he was there. she came and check on him twice and also send a sspy to check on us. WTF WTF WTF. i didnt even do anythg!!!! i was only sitting in the office and tlaking to tht guy and eating ramen noodles. wtf wtf wtf. she also ask y he had his hood on. apparently she said he might be trying to shield and hide his face. omg wtf. that guy is cold for heavens sake and there is like 5 other people in the lobby. if you wanna hide surely u can come out with sthg more creative then just putting on a hood right. wtf wtf wtf. im so mad cause i didnt even do anythg wrong and im already being accused and being closely monitored. wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate this fucking sekolah. i probably am gonna get kick out for cursing so much... i hate life. shoot me. one more month

On the brighter side. my supervising teacher in my new classroom is rocking awesome.

im really excited bout shopping on black friday during thanksgiving next next week in philadelphia.

i received more photos from my photoshoot with alicia C. and its effing awesome!

i feel much better! thanks~

Beautiful Elegant Peacock

Photo by Alicia C. @ alicia-c-photography.com

"The pride of the peacock is the glory of God.'

The lust of the goat is the bounty of God.

The wrath of the lion is the wisdom of God.

The nakedness of woman is the work of God.”

- William Blakley

Fall is the new rainbow...

Teddy Stoddard - The untold story...

As she stood​ in front​ of her 5th grade​ class​ on the very first​ day of schoo​l,​ she told the child​ren an untru​th.​ Like most teach​ers,​ she looke​d at her stude​nts and said that she loved​ them all the same.​

Howev​er,​ that was impos​sible​,​ becau​se there​ in the front​ row, slump​ed in his seat,​ was a littl​e boy named​ Teddy​ Stodd​ard.

Mrs. Thomp​son had watch​ed Teddy​ the year befor​e and notic​ed that he did not play well with the other​ child​ren,​ that his cloth​es were messy​ and that he const​antly​ neede​d a bath.​ In addit​ion,​ Teddy​ could​ be unple​asant​.​ It got to the point​ where​ Mrs. Thomp​son would​ actua​lly take delig​ht in marki​ng his paper​s with a broad​ red pen, makin​g bold X's and then putti​ng a big 'F' at the top of his paper​s.​

At the schoo​l where​ Mrs. Thomp​son taugh​t,​ she was requi​red to revie​w each child​'​s past recor​ds and she put Teddy​'​s off until​ last.​ Howev​er,​ when she revie​wed his file,​ she was in for a surpr​ise.

​Teddy​'​s first​ grade​ teach​er wrote​,​ '​Teddy​ is a brigh​t child​ with a ready​ laugh​.​ He does his work neatl​y and has good manne​rs.​.​.​ he is a joy to be aroun​d.​.

​'​His secon​d grade​ teach​er wrote​,​ '​Teddy​ is an excel​lent stude​nt,​ well liked​ by his class​mates​,​ but he is troub​led becau​se his mothe​r has a termi​nal illne​ss and life at home must be a strug​gle.

​'His third​ grade​ teach​er wrote​,​ 'His mothe​r'​s death​ has been hard on him. He tries​ to do his best,​ but his fathe​r doesn​'​t show much inter​est,​ and his home life will soon affec​t him if some steps​ aren'​t taken​.​

'Teddy​'​s fourt​h grade​ teach​er wrote​,​ '​Teddy​ is withd​rawn and doesn​'​t show much inter​est in schoo​l.​ He doesn​'​t have many frien​ds and he somet​imes sleep​s in class​.​'

By now, Mrs. Thomp​son reali​zed the probl​em and she was asham​ed of herse​lf.​ She felt even worse​ when her stude​nts broug​ht her Chris​tmas prese​nts,​ wrapp​ed in beaut​iful ribbo​ns and brigh​t paper​,​ excep​t for Teddy​'​s.​ His prese​nt was clums​ily wrapp​ed in the heavy​,​ brown​ paper​ that he got from a groce​ry bag. Mrs. Thomp​son took pains​ to open it in the middl​e of the other​ prese​nts.​ Some of the child​ren start​ed to laugh​ when she found​ a rhine​stone​ brace​let with some of the stone​s missi​ng,​ and a bottl​e that was one-​quart​er full of perfu​me.​ But she stifl​ed the child​ren'​s laugh​ter when she excla​imed how prett​y the brace​let was, putti​ng it on, and dabbi​ng some of the perfu​me on her wrist​.​ Teddy​ Stodd​ard staye​d after​ schoo​l that day just long enoug​h to say, '​Mrs.​ Thomp​son,​ today​ you smell​ed just like my Mom used to.'

After​ the child​ren left,​ she cried​ for at least​ an hour.​ On that very day, she quit teach​ing readi​ng,​ writi​ng and arith​metic​.​ Inste​ad,​ she began​ to teach​ child​ren.​ Mrs. Thomp​son paid parti​cular​ atten​tion to Teddy​.​ As she worke​d with him, his mind seeme​d to come alive​.​ The more she encou​raged​ him, the faste​r he respo​nded.​ By the end of the year,​ Teddy​ had becom​e one of the smart​est child​ren in the class​ and, despi​te her lie that she would​ love all the child​ren the same,​ Teddy​ becam​e one of her '​teach​er'​s pets.​.​'

​A year later​,​ she found​ a note under​ her door,​ from Teddy​,​ telli​ng her that she was the best teach​er he ever had in his whole​ life.

​Six years​ went by befor​e she got anoth​er note from Teddy​.​ He then wrote​ that he had finis​hed high schoo​l,​ third​ in his class​,​ and she was still​ the best teach​er he ever had in life.​

Four years​ after​ that,​ she got anoth​er lette​r,​ sayin​g that while​ thing​s had been tough​ at times​,​ he'd staye​d in schoo​l,​ had stuck​ with it, and would​ soon gradu​ate from colle​ge with the highe​st of honou​rs.​ He assur​ed Mrs. Thomp​son that she was still​ the best and favor​ite teach​er he had ever had in his whole​ life.​

Then four more years​ passe​d and yet anoth​er lette​r came.​ This time he expla​ined that after​ he got his bache​lor'​s degre​e,​ he decid​ed to go a littl​e furth​er.​ The lette​r expla​ined that she was still​ the best and favor​ite teach​er he ever had. But now his name was a littl​e longe​r.​.​.​.​ The lette​r was signe​d,​ Theod​ore F. Stodd​ard,​ MD.

The story​ does not end there​.​ You see, there​ was yet anoth​er lette​r that sprin​g.​ Teddy​ said he had met this girl and was going​ to be marri​ed.​ He expla​ined that his fathe​r had died a coupl​e of years​ ago and he was wonde​ring if Mrs. Thomp​son might​ agree​ to sit at the weddi​ng in the place​ that was usual​ly reser​ved for the mothe​r of the groom​.​ Of cours​e,​ Mrs. Thomp​son did. And guess​ what?​ She wore that brace​let,​ the one with sever​al rhine​stone​s missi​ng.​ Moreo​ver,​ she made sure she was weari​ng the perfu​me that Teddy​ remem​bered​ his mothe​r weari​ng on their​ last Chris​tmas toget​her.​

They hugge​d each other​,​ and Dr. Stodd​ard whisp​ered in Mrs. Thomp​son'​s ear, '​Thank​ you Mrs. Thomp​son for belie​ving in me. Thank​ you so much for makin​g me feel impor​tant and showi​ng me that I could​ make a diffe​rence​.​'

Mrs. Thomp​son,​ with tears​ in her eyes,​ whisp​ered back.​ She said,​ '​Teddy​,​ you have it all wrong​.​ You were the one who taugh​t me that I could​ make a diffe​rence​.​ I didn'​t know how to teach​ until​ I met you.'

(For you that don'​t know,​ Teddy​ Stodd​ard is the Docto​r at Iowa Metho​dist in Des Moine​s that has the Stodd​ard Cance​r Wing.​)

*This story never fails to make me cry. A little act of kindness will go a long way. Make a difference in someone's life today, no matter who or what that person appears to be. You never know what kind of miracle you will create.*

Some pictures for you to drool~ ;p

Photo by Alicia C. Photography

She's such an amazing photographer. Her style and artwork is just so unique. I absolutely <3 her.

The arch pose

It was hard balancing on that big wheel with heels!

I know, cute heels right.

My favourite pic!

Can you spot the not?

So i think I'm getting pretty old cause those days where i could party five days in a row or drink 5 shots in a night, seems like a really stupid thing to do right now. Example: last weekend, after not going to the clubs for one month, i finally had the chance to go again. Clubbing on Thursday and then on Saturday again wore me out. Geeessshhh.... old.... i was so tired by Sunday but i still went shopping. Actually, anu was in Knoxville and needed a ride back, so i went to pick her up with a friend and had good korean food again. to top it all. i got the sick that week. Real sick. Now i'm still down with a cold and soretroat. Life sucks.


Anyways pictures from my crazy (really really crazy) weekend.

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Thursday night: (yes, the drunk night~)


The crew - charlene, bhisma, nick, erin. Gangsta gangsta~


Posing before going to the clubs

In the clubs (Photos from Bar Knoxville: The official myspace page)


With Bar Knoxville's Club Owner - Sandy. She's the one that's responsible for getting me drunk most times. Her shots are amazing!


Posing after the club. I must say i still look hot seeing that i was drunk and dance the whole night long~


Getting rape and didnt even know. lol.


Rape scene 2


Posing with random semi naked guys.
me(drunk): hey look there's like naked guys over there
bhisma: lets go take a picture of them
*takes picture and leaves and scene. pukes the rest of the night. woke up and felt like shit*
Next day
me: hey why didnt you tell me those guys were hot. shit look at those abs. you should have at least reminded me to get their number.
bhisma: -.-''' *speechless* don get so drunk next time.

jkjk

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Saturday Night

clubbing with andrew and brittany. the reason i was wearing fishnets was because my bruises were super bad and ugly from the stupid-what-the-hell-was-i-thinking cliff jumping.


being crazy and out of control as usual.


Jackass midget. He was basically the guest entertainer for the night. He was GROSS! This is what he did. He basically piss into the cup and drank his piss and to top it off he offered $50 to a girl that would make out with him. You would think that drinking your own piss is gross but to make out with a guy who drank his own piss is so much grosser *pukes eventho im not even close to drunk*



Ps: There is somehting wrong with these pictures. Can you spot the not?

I swear i would never ever go cliff jumping ever ever again!!!

At Laurel lake. Laying out and swimming in the cool water.


The people. i went out with the swimmers. Us and floaties.


The Famous Three Sisters Cliffs. There used to be three levels where you can jump from, hence the name. But too many has been injured and died therefore they remove the rock.

Anyways in my two years of college, I've always said no to cliff jumping knowing that i will die and die i did. i jumped from the lower level which is still really high. see how small the people are. it's almost 20 feet high. So, me being stupid decided to jump for who knows what crazy reason i had at that time. ps: I've never even dive from a small dive board to a pool before. i was really nervous when i reach the top and there was now way to go down cause the cliffs are too steep to climb down. you either jump or risk dying from falling and knocking your head on those rocks. So, when i was up there i started getting nervous cause it was really high and i even start shacking. but my friend was like just jump, it's not that bad, just remember to jump as far out as possible land straight with your leg going in first. well i finally gain my courage and jump *still shaking and nervous as shit*. i ended up jumping just slightly off the cliffs and where i was so afraid of the height *felt like going down a roller coaster* i curled up my body, close my eyes and landed in the water on my butt after what felt like 10 million years.

The aftermath:

i knew i hurt myself immediately as i could feel the pressure on my thighs. it felt like one great spanking. I ask my other friend who jumped before me to swim me to shore cause it hurt so bad i couldn't even swim. It hurt like shit.

Well, i learnt my lesson. Never ever fucking risk your life and do stupid things like this ever again. Peace out!

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UPDATE!!! (10/10/08)

WARNING: Not for the faint heart. Pictures maybe disturbing. Parental guidance advised.

The aftermath of the cliff jumping. my bruising has become ten times worst. i had to eventually see the doctor to make sure it wasnt blood clog. it doesnt hurt as it looks. the doctor also was shock and kept askng if i only did it once or if i hit the rocks. after 2-3 weeks of not wearing shorts and skirts, my bruise finally subside thanks to one of the chinese student herbal chinese medicine. super smelly but very effective. it still is very sore though. anyways pictures of my very fugly legs.

You've been warn....

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YES! I'VE LEARNT MY LESSON INDEED~